A Time of Becoming

September 1, 2018

Dear readers,

It is a time of becoming, this month, September. It is a time to come into being, and to do so more completely, with more conviction and joy. Certainly that’s what nature seems to be telling us. In some regions of the world, spring is approaching, the valleys and countryside starting to look lush, green, expectant. In the US and in other parts of the Northern Hemisphere, the riotous bloom of summer will soon mature into autumn, into that regality of color which seems to come only with time and a humility born of having weathered things—highs and lows, joys and sorrows. This is a liminal period, wherever we are in the world.

That this period has so many shades, moreover—that there can be at once a vibrant newness to it and a ripening into what is and always has been—is apt. The variety of hue and feeling reflects the range of human experience itself, and the nature of sadhana. Our progress in sadhana requires both newness and maturity, the beginner’s mind and the cultivation and strengthening of wisdom. In the synergy between the two, there is possibility, brimming potential. There is movement.

In her Message talk for this year, Gurumayi teaches about the poet-saints of India and the tradition of satsang they helped create—how they showed, through their words and their actions, that the experience of the Truth is accessible to all people. One of the saints Gurumayi spoke about was Lalleshwari, of fourteenth-century Kashmir. To this day Lalleshwari’s stirring verse remains a source of inspiration for spiritual seekers; it gives poetic form to a yearning that is universally felt, and lyrical shape to the teachings that help us act on that yearning. Baba Muktananda rendered many of Lalleshwari’s poems into Hindi (she wrote in the Kashmiri language), and Gurumayi translated Baba’s renderings into English.

In one poem, Lalleshwari writes:

poem by Lalleshwari

Are you awake?
Then stride forth.
Walk fast and complete your journey.
You must take great care
to let your understanding grow.2

There is such dynamism in Lalleshwari’s words, a spirit of starting anew in her call to stride forth. At the same time, she is urging us to complete our journey—to bring to conclusion what it is that we have already begun, to take strong, swift, steady steps to make good on what we have accomplished so far.

In her Message talk Gurumayi asks us to carry forward a resolution, and that is to create our own satsang, to “Pause and connect” at any given moment and in any given place. So, as we enter the last third of 2018 while keenly aware of the beginnings that are afoot, let us consider what it would mean to fulfill this resolution. Where do we want to be in our sadhana by the end of 2018? What does completion of our journey, or this leg of it, look like, and how do we get there?

Truly speaking, there is no end date, no cutoff point, for creating your own satsang. Satsang, coming into the company of the Truth, is the very essence of sadhana; it is timeless in its relevance, limitless in its capacity to reveal more to you about your own Self. Still, it is useful to articulate some idea or measure of where you want to be by the end of the year, and to then pursue that goal in earnest while you still have four months—four whole months, replete with promise and opportunity—to get there. Gurumayi has taught about taking “small, specific, scheduled” steps to achieve goals in sadhana. In this way, you can more readily conceive of what you are working toward. You can wrap your mind around it—and then do it, with greater verve too.

So think about the questions posed above. Where do you want to be by the end of 2018? What would it mean to have carried forward the resolution Gurumayi has given you? Perhaps, for you, fulfilling this resolution means really developing your muscle for creating satsang; it means assimilating “Pause and connect” so thoroughly into your being that this practice becomes as natural for you as breathing in and breathing out. Perhaps it’s about knowing intimately what your own good company is, and being able to access that with equal ease whether you are with people or by yourself. Or perhaps it’s about sustaining the moment of satsang, so that you experience connection with yourself more continuously as you go about the activities of your day.

Whatever resonates with you, go with it and go for it. Derive inspiration and energy from all the new beginnings happening around and within you. Heed the words of Lalleshwari and—without forcing it, without coercing it—let your understanding grow. With patience, with persistence, with intrepid spirit, create an environment in which Satsang, the teaching and the experience, can take permanent root in your soul.

As always, the Siddha Yoga path website will be an aid and resource for you in your endeavors. In India, this is the month of Ganesh Utsava, the ten-day festival in honor of Lord Ganesh (also known as Ganapati), the remover of obstacles and the deity of new beginnings. Ganesh Utsava will be taking place between September 12 and 23 this year (September 13 to 23 in India); so that you may invoke his presence during this time, there will be hymns to Ganapati bappa for you to sing and read about on the website. The website will also be featuring stories relating to themes from Gurumayi’s Message, and a talk by Swami Akhandananda about the role of the intellect in your sadhana.

And if you have not done so already—or even, especially, if you haveI encourage you to participate in A Sweet Surprise Satsang and listen to Gurumayi’s Message talk. It is available on the Siddha Yoga path website until September 9. Each time you participate, your exploration of Gurumayi’s teachings—your understanding of what it is you are moving toward, of the course you are staying—grows deeper, more profound, and more nuanced.

Recently, Gurumayi was in the Amrit Courtyard in Shree Muktananda Ashram with a group of children and young people. The courtyard was a panorama of color, one side of it curtained by tall stalks of sunflowers, and the rest fringed by plants and flowers in shades of red, orange, pink, yellow. The sun was out, its bright white glow enveloping everything.

As Gurumayi stood near the sunflowers with the children, a butterfly clung to her hand. It just sat there—still, unmoving, as though unsure of what would happen were it to inch forward on its spindly legs.

After a few moments Gurumayi nudged the butterfly toward a nearby sunflower. The flower’s spongy face and big, heart-shaped leaves were like an open invitation. Yet the butterfly stayed put; it would not leave Gurumayi’s hand. Very gently, Gurumayi tilted it forward on her open palm and said, “Go. You can hold on. You’re strong.”

Ever so slowly, the butterfly obliged, tipping onto one of the leaves. And then—it stayed there. It held on, its grip a remarkable combination of ease and tenaciousness. It stretched out its wings, letting in the sun and revealing the incredible mosaic on its back.

It is remarkable what happens when we follow the Guru’s teachings—the virtues we discover within ourselves, the strength and beauty we can suddenly draw upon and share with our world. Earlier in this letter, I quoted a poem by Lalleshwari. It has another stanza, one that is pertinent to us always, but perhaps especially so now, in this particular, pivotal, transitional moment we find ourselves in.

Lalleshwari says:

poem by Lalleshwari

Seek your Friend
and you will see the light.
Let your legs become stronger
and your wings sprout.4

Sincerely,

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Eesha Sardesai

1 Lallayogeshvari ki Vani (Lallayogeshvari’s words): Commentary by Swami Muktananda Paramahamsa (Ganeshpuri, India: Shree Gurudev Ashram, 1981), verse 2.40, p. 38.
2 Lalleshwari: Spiritual Poems by a Great Siddha Yogini, rendered by Swami Muktananda (S. Fallsburg, NY: SYDA Foundation, 1981), p. 5.
3Lallayogeshvari ki Vani (Ganeshpuri, India: Shree Gurudev Ashram, 1981), verse 2.40, p. 38.
4Lalleshwari, rendered by Swami Muktananda (S. Fallsburg, NY: SYDA Foundation, 1981), p. 5.

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    This letter evokes for me the transitional moment of being perched at the edge of a high diving board, poised on the verge of flight into the new. The anticipation is building, and I’m feeling free to jump confidently into what comes next!

    Siddha Yogi from St. Lazare, Canada

    What gripped my heart in this letter was the word assimilate. I understand that assimilating Gurumayi’s Message is so important to do on a regular basis.
     
    I see that even when I “pause and connect” to the Truth during simple moments of satsang during the day, I often go back to the mundane happenings at hand. My attention moves away from satyarasa, from the “ambrosia of the Truth.” I know that if I focus on assimilating this rasa, then Lalleshwari’s poem will bear fruit.
     
    Gurumayi, I bow down in gratitude for your constant guidance to go deeper into your Message.

    Nairobi, Kenya

    I am grateful for the insight, inspiration, and practical guidance in this beautiful letter. Practicing the resolution Gurumayi asks us to carry forward has been so essential for me: “…to create our own satsang, to ‘Pause and connect’ at any given moment and in any given place.”

    If I find myself reacting to an email or something someone says, now I “pause and connect,” and then return to the situation at hand with more clarity and ease.

    Such moments of satsang help me transform potential discord into harmonious relationships, and affirm my trust in the wisdom of the Self that lies within me.

    Thank you, Gurumayi, for this teaching. I will continue to practice it for the rest of my life.

    California, United States

    I love this letter. The experience of Gurumayi and the butterfly brought tears of recognition that arose directly from my heart.
     
    Each year, as I anticipate receiving Gurumayi’s Message, I think to myself, “What more? What more could she possible give me, when she has already given me everything?”.
     
    And yet, each year imbibing and practicing Gurumayi’s Message for the year takes me closer and closer to my goal, enriching and deepening my understanding, my knowledge and experience of the Truth.
     
    I experience that Gurumayi has given me so very many specific tools, so many direct ways and means of being in touch with my own Truth, of having satsang at all times.
     
    The question arises within me, “What are you waiting for?”. I have the strength, I will wait no longer. I am renewing my intention of reaching the goal, the completion of my journey.

    Florida, United States

    The words and images of this letter, so carefully observed and chosen, have brought me, like the butterfly clinging to Gurumayi’s hand, into recognition of the power within and the willingness to carry on and carry through the commitment to my Self in sadhana.
     
    I feel delicate, yet resilient, opening to the sun’s rays for nurturance, confident of the abiding strength and grace to stretch my wings further toward fulfillment of the promise of my chosen path. I am so blessed!

    Washington, United States

    I love Gurumayi’s guidance to take “’small, specific, scheduled’ steps,” so that we can move incrementally and purposefully toward completion. The step I’m working on, which sometimes feels very big, is to access the stillness and bliss of my own good company even in stressful circumstances.
     
    Gurumayi’s words to the butterfly, “’Go. You can hold on. You’re strong,’”opened my heart, brought tears to my eyes, and gifted me a surge of strength for facing life’s challenges with grace.
     
    Thank you, Gurumayi, for your constant support and encouragement. 

    Illinois, USA

    As someone living in Australia, I felt grateful that the September letter  mentioned seasons from the entire planet, acknowledging that it is spring in some parts of the world. I also appreciated how the writer so beautifully compared the difference in the seasons to the nature of our sadhana.

    Thornbury, Australia

    What I enjoyed most about the September letter is how it reminds me that each season is a beginning that I can embrace, and from which I can start anew.
     
    For me, this season begins by participating again in A Sweet Surprise Satsang 2018, and listening with new awareness and understanding acquired from several months of study. I intend to reflect on where I was on January 1, and on how I’ve grown during these months of practice.
     
    Through contemplating and engaging in satsang, independently and with fellow Siddha Yogis, I plan to assess not only where I am, but also where I want to go and how I want to get there.
     
    I have found that by contemplating meaningful questions such as what I need to do to move from being a pupa to an imago, accompanied by journaling and meditation, I am usually able to get to the crux of the matter, and like the butterfly in the letter, spread my wings and fly.

    New York, USA

    Since entering my senior years, I’ve been having an ongoing, internal satsang about how the seasons of human life and nature develop and mature.
     
    My contemplation has led me to appreciate how spring emerges slowly in pale white, pink, and blue colors with snowdrops, crocus, and phlox. This softness prepares me for the grandeur and more variegated foliage of summer, which invigorates me and the earth.
     
    Next, the colors of autumn burst forth in brilliant, flamboyant hues of gold, red, yellow, orange. To me, this seems contradictory, as I think of autumn as an ending and preparation for the dormancy of winter. However, I now recognize autumn as a season of arduous work, culminating in a splendid harvest feast.
     
    This letter supports my viewpoint that my senior years can also reflect the beauty, vibrancy, and opulence of autumn. Using the knowledge and experience garnered during the springs and summers of my life, and through sadhana, I can offer more fully to the world and to others the harvest of my life’s study and knowledge.

    Nassau, Bahamas

    After reading the poem from Lalleshwari, I feel clearer about how I can take my inner and outer journey ahead in the rest of 2018. I am inspired to continue my practice of self-inquiry with more zeal and confidence.
     
    I intend to renew my daily routine of fifteen minutes of journaling every morning with the understanding that journaling is a dialogue with my own Self–satsang. A specific focus revealed through journaling helps me to practice carrying the light of awareness in my conversations and actions for the rest of the day. This also helps me at the end of the day to review how the day unfolded in this light.
     
    The journey is on, and I am really enjoying it!
     
    Thank you, Shri Gurumayi, for giving such valuable insight and guidance through this letter.

    Pune, India

    Reading this letter several times over was like focusing a lens. My vision slowly clarified, until one question stood illumined in my awareness: How will I use the remaining four months of 2018 to fulfill my intention for practicing satsang?
     
    I want to heed Lalleshwari’s words to “let your understanding grow.” I cannot think of a more fortifying way to embark on the next leg of my sadhana than to be accompanied by Gurumayi’s loving words: “Go. You can hold on. You’re strong.”
     
    Thank you so much, Gurumayi.

    Castlemaine, Australia

    As I was about to read the letter, a butterfly came to rest on the screen of the window in front of my computer. Then, as I read the story of Gurumayi encouraging the butterfly onto the sunflower, I felt, “Yes, this message is for me!”
     
    The letter reminds me of the opportunity and preciousness of this new beginning, as well as the divine support I have to reach my full potential. I am inspired to put forth steady effort to recognize the moments when I can “pause and connect” and experience satsang, as I do now, in this moment.

    Buenos Aires, Argentina

    I truly appreciate this strong reminder of the power of intention to help guide my actions and choices as I strive to implement my resolution to practice and assimilate Gurumayi’s Message for this year. Already, I have a brand new appreciation of the joys of taking a few moments to “pause and connect” with nature. I have also started to understand my awareness of my mental activity as satsang with my own mind and its thoughts.
     
    Thank you for these encouraging suggestions about how to get the most from exploring and practicing the Message. I look forward, gratefully, to the enlivening revelations of the coming months.

    California, USA