One of the shares posted on “Quietude” had a profound impact on my understanding. It has inspired me to write about my own experience.
The student shared how, after experiencing a birth in their family and—on the same day—the death of a dear friend, they applied Gurumayi’s teachings and were able to experience the space of flawless quietude.
Shortly after reading this share, I was able to apply the student’s wisdom and experience to a situation that arose in my own life. In the midst of opposing emotions, I was able to sense the steady, calm, and silent undercurrent flowing beneath all fluctuations of life. It felt like the soft fragrance of a deep, underlying Truth. It was a breakthrough for me, a deep recognition within myself.
I experienced appreciation for the student’s share. Reading the shares of students around the globe has helped me see ways to apply the teachings in my own life situations and has been an inspiration for my sadhana
a Gurukula student in Gurudev Siddha Peeth
I woke up this morning from a dream in which I had been panicking because I was late getting somewhere and had no way of returning to where I was supposed to go. Just before the end of my dream, I saw a being sitting quietly; then I woke up.
After waking up, my agitated state continued because I really was very late for my morning practices. When I finally settled down for meditation, I pranamed
as usual, and stayed in the pranam
posture for a little while, as I love to do. As I was pranaming
, I remembered the being that I had seen in my dream and how unaffected he was by my state of unrest. I realized that he was my inner Self, my inner guide. I recognized that there is always that one, deep within me, who is the knower, who sees everything, and is unaffected by my outer circumstances. Deep within me is the flawless quietude that I can always connect to.
a Siddha Yogi from Egham, United Kingdom
After receiving the New Year’s Message in A Sweet Surprise
satsang, I spent time traveling through Europe. I love traveling but often find myself anxious about catching transport, making connections, going to new places, and meeting (and sometimes staying) with new people. While traveling, I found myself saying the Message silently to myself, and then it became like a mantra with the breath aligning with the inner recitation of the words.
Gurumayi's Message has profoundly affected the way I react in these situations. The words of the Message and the aligned breath carry me to the place of quietude with ease. The energy of quietude becomes more powerful as I repeat the Message.
Thank you, Gurumayi, for this great gift that you have given us all!
a Siddha Yogi from Melbourne, Australia
I finished my morning meditation, sang the Kundalini Stavaha
, and briefly experienced a state of stillness, of quietude. Within a few minutes my mind took me to Gurudev Siddha Peeth, since I have just returned from a Pilgrimage to the Heart Retreat.
Remembering the retreat, I felt so much love and gratitude for Gurumayi, for the lineage of Siddha Yoga Masters, for the sevites of the Ashram, and the retreat team. While at the retreat, I experienced great calm, tranquility, and contentment, and I have been returning to that state of stillness and quietude ever since I returned.
a Siddha Yogi from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
The word quietude
was a mystery to me at first because all I could focus on was the word etude
contained within the word. In music, an etude
is a study; and the word etude
is related to words meaning "study" in several languages.
I could not understand why I was so focused on that part of the word quietude
, instead of on the peace and quiet that is the very definition of the word. But I knew that quietude
in its entirety held a deeper meaning for me. Then, when I read the definition of this word, I found the answer I was looking for: "…the mind returns to the pristine awareness within." That is the deep study, the true study, for me as a Siddha Yoga student. With this understanding I am now able to fully experience the word quietude.
a Siddha Yogi from California, USA
A dear friend passed away last Sunday, on the same day my niece gave birth to her first baby—a day to experience the unbroken continuity of life cycles: life arising and subsiding.
After the funeral, I went to a park and sat under the shade of a willow tree. I contemplated its leaves and branches cascading around me. Its weeping stance reflected my grief, but its flexible swaying showed me the way to openness and acceptance. I closed my eyes and attuned my breath to the pulse of nature within and without. I pierced through layers of opposing emotions that were playing a tug of war: pain and pleasure, fear and relief, grief and excitement—until finally I reached a space where tension disappeared, and all I experienced was flawless quietude and gratitude.
It dawned on me how many times I am born and die during the day, in different ways. However, there is a perfect, eternal thread that weaves together the repeating cycles, renewing and sustaining my inner and outer worlds. This golden thread, the soundless sound, leads me to a place where I can rest in bliss.
, Gurumayi, eternally.
a Siddha Yogi from Buenos Aires, Argentina
A week after I participated in A Sweet Surprise
satsang, I was to leave for a nine-day work trip where I would be doing a great deal of teaching. I had some of the usual trepidation and nervousness, since it was a very big event.
The morning I was to leave, I had a dream. I was in the conference arena where the event would be held, and on the floor was a large cloth that had a Japanese enso
printed on it—a huge circle, inked with a brush by a meditation master in a state of perfect concentration and freedom. In the dream, I was invited to enter the enso
and sit for a while. I did this, and found myself drawn deeply inside: completely quiet and still, feeling the refuge that was available. When I woke, I had the insight that in the dream I'd literally entered the space of flawless quietude. This gave me great confidence as I entered the next nine days of teaching. I could feel Gurumayi's support as I continued to reflect on the dream, returning to that sublime space whenever I felt the fluctuations of nervousness.
a Siddha Yogi from Massachusetts, USA
I experience that the Message for 2014 itself arises from flawless quietude. These words, since they arise from our beloved Guru’s heart, have so much power that after listening to them, I simply glide into the space of flawless quietude. My mind becomes still, and I feel quietude everywhere: in trees, in rocks, and in hills—everywhere—whether or not I am performing daily actions. This is the wonderful experience that manifests after hearing Gurumayi’s words.
Thank you so much, Gurumayi, for giving me the experience of quietude.
a Siddha Yogi from Pune, India
Last week, I had the opportunity to participate in A Sweet Surprise
satsang for the second time. Just two days after that, due to an unexpected health disorder, I was admitted into an Intensive Care facility, where I had a very powerful and tangible experience of this year’s Message. Amidst the challenging medical treatments, I chanted the So’ham
mantra and would easefully glide into deep meditation. In those moments, I experienced complete nishabdhata
Lying on the hospital bed undergoing treatment, I had the most marvelous, deep meditation experience. I saw a golden yellow light, which gradually turned into dark pink and then a dark magenta color. I felt I had all the time to dive into these beautiful lights and colors, and my heart experienced boundless happiness. I eagerly waited for the moments when I was uninterrupted and could once again connect within. At other times, I kept listening to Siddha Yoga chants and swadhyaya,
which simply melted away the physical pain of my body.
At other times in my meditation, I saw deep valleys, mountains, the ocean, and the vast clear blue sky. I have never seen such beautiful colors before in my life. Though physically my body was going through intense pain, deep within my heart I was experiencing newness and joy. My heart overflows with gratitude for Gurumayiji’s infinite love, protection, and blessings.
, Gurumayiji, for blessing me with the rasa
of inner happiness even during these physically painful moments of my life.
a Siddha Yogi from Mumbai, India