Assimilation
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By Eesha Sardesai

This wonderful exposition on assimilation brought a healing to my heart. I have recently moved to a different country and am living alone in a new place, once again developing a new lifestyle. This isn’t for the faint of heart, but what has kept me anchored is Gurumayi’s presence in my home.
In moments of feeling low, I look at Gurumayi’s picture, and then a whole conversation happens that brings my assimilation of her teachings back to my awareness. I then remember the purpose of this move, and I enjoy thinking of the transition that I worked for relentlessly over the last two years. In these precious moments, I turn from a sense of weakness to a feeling of peace within.
I offer my gratitude to Gurumayi for always being with me and for giving me the strength to carry on.
Dubai, United Arab Emirates
As I sat in my temporary abode in the desert in Joshua Tree National Park reading this beautiful essay on assimilation and allowing the piano sounds to cascade over me, thunder roared and lightning flashed in the sky above the house. I was flooded by grace-filled memories of various events over the course of my sadhana. These included listening to the sounds of “elephant rain” splashing on the roof of the Shakti Mandap in Shree Muktananda Ashram after a joyful chant with Gurumayi, taking part in courses, and offering seva.
It was like witnessing a divine mosaic that continued to shift and scintillate within me, nurtured by my remembrance and devotion, and by the Guru’s grace. I am deeply grateful for this practice of assimilation, which has made me aware that such a beautiful tapestry exists within me.
New York, United States
Washington, United States
Hyderabad, India
I am humbled when I realize how blessed I am, how much my inner state and outer life have been uplifted and made more joyful through seva. I am grateful for the grace that helps me to continue offering seva with joy and love.
Konolfingen, Switzerland
I am so grateful for the chances I have been given to experience the grace, darshan, and teachings of the Siddha Yoga Gurus and how I have assimilated these into my life.
Hørsholm, Denmark
I wanted to more fully understand and experience a teaching of Gurumayi that I had been studying a few days before. It was a teaching on the virtue of gentleness. So, I applied a fragrant oil that I sometimes use before meditation, and I began to listen to the song from Remembrance. As I listened and reflected on Gurumayi’s teaching, amazingly, I felt that the quality of gentleness was embracing me, seeping into my bones, and becoming part of me.
I was filled with gratitude to Gurumayi for her teaching. And I was grateful for this essay on assimilation and for the share that, together, inspired me to practice it.
Massachusetts, United States
It has been my practice for years to recite the Namakam and Chamakam of Shri Rudram each Monday morning. This morning I remembered that the 103-year-old mother of a good friend was near death, and the family had gathered. I offered my recitation to my friend, his mother, and their family. Afterwards, I opened my email to read that his mother had passed away during my recitation. I’m grateful for this deep reminder that the Guru’s grace is always present and that the awakened inner shakti is always there to guide me.
North Carolina, United States
I am feeling extremely happy and grateful after reading this exposition as it adds further insights as to how I can continue to assimilate and integrate the invaluable teachings into daily life situations and relish their nectar.
Pune, India
Pennsylvania, United States
For example: I am grateful for a lot of things—but I am also often spending time rushing around, hurrying, and multitasking. I understand that to assimilate my gratitude, I have to pause from these activities and take time to contemplate that which I am grateful for and why. Only then will I deeply feel gratitude.
New York, United States
I am so thankful to Gurumayi for the loving guidance of this exposition.
Bangalore, India
Showering from the sahasrara
Peacefulness of the breath
Quietude of the mind
Cascading like realization
Overcoming obstacles
Washing away the sharp edges
Continuously flowing, gentle and insistent
Sliding from memory into consciousness
Erasing the pretensions, the “presumed limitations”
Waiting patiently for illumination, for realization
Trusting, trusting the silence
Trusting the word
Trusting the world within
Reveling, relaxing, taking the time
Time to absorb the wonder
Feeling the peacefulness
Swelling into exuberance, exhilaration, enthusiasm
Waiting for the sound, pure and insistent
The scent, alluring and exquisite
At ease in the soul
Accepting the gift,
Offering with gratitude
Repeating the Guru’s word
Attaining the Guru’s state
Illinois, United States
Images of friends on the spiritual path come to mind. Laughter and tears. Moments of joy with my physical and inner Guru. Reading, studying, meditating, offering seva. I picture my beautiful children and my loving husband. Tears of gratitude roll down as I continue to listen.
This special music evokes in me profound feelings and memorable sweet images.
Mexico City, Mexico
Maryland, United States
Assimilation for me is, for example, taking the time to savor good food by closing my eyes and turning my attention toward my heart. This sweetness of the heart is also what I have come to experience while chanting and listening to Siddha Yoga hymns and prayers, and while silently repeating the mantra.
Through regular Siddha Yoga practices over the years, I have implemented “a system of drip irrigation” of the kind that Gurumayi has described as an analogy to assimilation, and that process of “drip irrigation” has borne delicious fruits for my sadhana.
Rodez, France
Maine, United States
But gradually that impression changed as I continued to deepen my study of the teachings in various ways. In particular, I discovered the power of contemplation, which I believe is the most valuable tool in my sadhana. The Siddha Yoga Home Study Course, especially, has proven to be a vital element in my growing understanding of the teachings. Additionally, I have dedicated myself to writing in my journal.
Over time, as I have immersed myself more deeply in contemplation and study of the Self, I feel that I have established a close connection with the Siddha Yoga teachings. Now, as I listen to the improvisational piano tunes from Remembrance and recall the years I have spent in contemplation and assimilation of the teachings, I feel submerged in a sweet longing.
México City, Mexico
After reading this exposition, I realize that at this point in my life, what’s next for me is to take a deep breath and focus on assimilating all that has happened in the last few years. This knowledge brings me a sense of peace because it reassures me that the direction of my sadhana will unfold with grace leading the way.
Florida, United States
Ville St. Laurent, Canada
Recalling an experience of the Truth and letting it speak in the light of Shri Guru’s teachings brings to life in me the recognition that so many great gifts are continually and generously being given to me, and that it is my duty to honor and explore them. Letting their meanings unfold, reading new perspectives, and savoring this beautiful alchemy of assimilation are all for me additional gems of the Guru’s grace.
Milan, Italy
Delhi, India
Florida, United States
My intention is to take care to be aware of this process of assimilation.
Valladolid, Spain
I see that it is time now to soften, settle into my posture, take smaller portions onto my plate, and—assimilate! I’m very grateful for this beautiful reminder.
Castlemaine, Australia
Versoix, Switzerland
It’s so sweet, so lovely for me to learn to assimilate the Siddha Yoga teachings in this way.
San Giorgio a Cremano, Italy
It washed over me like a soothing balm, enveloping me in its comfort, penetrating my core. I felt it remove any discomfort and agitation that was there. Truly a healing experience! I am forever grateful for music—it is my medicine.
Winnipeg, Canada
I am grateful to reflect on the small efforts I can make each day to assimilate the teachings. Gurumayi’s teachings are always foremost in my mind. I am ever so grateful to receive them.
California, United States
Unterlangenegg, Switzerland
I find that the words of each teaching unfold deep within as I repeat them slowly again and again, allowing them to anchor themselves into each cell of my being. And then—I am in total bliss!
Surprisingly, the words sometimes surface on their own during the time I am having fun with my family. Then I inwardly smile, thanking Gurumayi for this practical way to remain connected to the knowledge of light.
Nairobi, Kenya
I reflected on how often I race from one activity to another and in the process lose the essence and true joy I could experience if I only took a moment to pause in between.
This essay on assimilation reminds me to stay with my breath and repeat the mantra inwardly as I move through my day.
Florida, United States
I put on one of my favorite fragrances and let the music from Remembrance enter my being as I read. I closed my eyes and was transported to different locations—the places I had been when I first discovered the Siddha Yoga teachings and practices we received this year. Transported back to those moments, I returned to the wonder and appreciation of the new experiences.
On my walks now, I have been reflecting on Gurumayi’s teachings and noticing the scent of jasmine, citrus blossoms, and salty air. I feel grateful, grounded, and free.
South Melbourne, Australia
With this realization, my inner voice changed and is now telling me: “You’re doing okay!” And I gave myself a little pat on the back.
I am grateful for “Assimilation,” for it has allowed me to pause and reflect on my life and my inner growth.
Eastbourne, United Kingdom
Fortunately, I have taken time to journal and in doing so, have had some profound reflections this year. Now my intention is to take more of my time for the practice of assimilation, so that I can allow future website gifts to seep more deeply into my being—like the gentle process of “drip irrigation” that Gurumayi has spoken of.
Delaware, United States
First I listened to the soothing musical offering, resting my head on what felt like a soft, silky pillow of sound. Then I read the exquisite essay. I understood that a subtle, yet rigorous, effort is necessary in order to assimilate Gurumayi’s teachings. I recognized that, when I rush to try to take in too much at once, I am bypassing that essential effort.
So this reminder of Gurumayi’s guidance about the value of pausing, returning my attention to my breath, and employing scent and sound will certainly help me in slowing down, anchoring myself, focusing my attention—in order to fully assimilate the teachings and to grow more deeply in understanding.
Colorado, United States
Listening to this music helps me assimilate the powerful experiences I recently had when I participated in two live stream events. What a sweet and gentle passage from summer to fall this melody is for me!
California, United States
I am grateful to Gurumayi for weaving our practices together with pauses, melodies, the fragrance of heena oil, and her divine teachings and love.
Oregon, United States
I am delighted at this opportunity to review all that I have learned from Gurumayi’s guidance throughout the year. I have a very long way to go, but I am on my way! I am now inspired to carry out the “drip irrigation” technique in my learning and in my sadhana. I know the Siddhas are watching over me, guiding me, supporting me, and shining the light on the path so all I need to do is keep moving forward.
I have just moved from one home and one country to another, and this essay is so perfect for me at this point in my life.
Lisbon, Portugal
I am very grateful for the lovely present of Eesha’s writing about assimilation.
Yautepec, Mexico
I’ve always found this to be a fascinating term, assimilation, the very sound of it—the sliding together of the “s” and “m” and “l” in the English word—emulating the process it describes. Assimilation is a melding, an incorporation, an absorption of something new so that the character of whatever we began with is changed, transformed, enhanced.
I’ll admit: the biggest reason I find assimilation to be of interest is that it’s something Gurumayi has long emphasized the importance of in Siddha Yoga sadhana. Gurumayi has taught that assimilation is integral to every practice we do on the Siddha Yoga path, that it is intrinsic to the very culture of this path. I can think of countless examples of this (and no doubt many of you will be able to as well!). Take, for instance, how Gurumayi has introduced a few minutes of meditation following the recitation of Shri Guru Gita, so that we can assimilate the benefits of this practice. Or how Gurumayi has given the guidance that there be a momentary pause—a brief respite—between successive elements of a satsang so that with each element, we have time to assimilate what we have learned and experienced. Gurumayi has also taught that in our day-to-day lives, we would do well to take a short pause before moving from one task to the next; in this way, our mind and body are processing the events of our day as they happen, and we’re more able to collect ourselves and be fully present for each new task.
In the world at large, assimilation—particularly the assimilation of ideas—refers to the process by which we incorporate new information into our existing bank of knowledge. It’s how we continue to build on that knowledge; it’s how we refine our skills, broaden our perspective, and arrive at a worldview that is hopefully more expansive and empathetic.
In the context of Siddha Yoga sadhana, the “new information” we are assimilating includes our experiences of the Siddha Yoga practices and the insights that arise from our study of Gurumayi’s teachings. The knowledge we gain as a result is multifaceted in its nature: it is most certainly intellectual, and it is also more broadly experiential (it is visual, auditory, kinesthetic). When we assimilate the teachings and practices, we let them become intuitive to our entire being; we acquire greater wisdom of both the brain and body, a keener and more nuanced discernment of what it means to be in touch with our own Self and how we can continually readjust, recalibrate, so that we sustain and act from that inner connection.
Gurumayi recently shared with me an analogy that she has given to people when explaining assimilation. She has said that assimilation is like a system of drip irrigation, whereby water is brought literally in drips to the roots of plants. This is a much more effective method for watering plants than, say, simply hosing them down; after all, there is only so much water that the plants can take in and retain at one time.
Another analogy has to do with eating: if you eat too much and too often, or if you insist on eating only foods that are rich and heavy, you are bound to have trouble with digestion. If you overdo it while exercising, attempting to run ten miles before you’ve ever successfully completed one, you risk injury. And if you’re studying for a big exam and trying to cram a semester’s worth of lessons into one night, your brain will, at some point, revolt, unable and unwilling to process the deluge of information coming its way. People often speak of burnout; what is this if not the consequence of trying to accomplish more than you have time to process and assimilate?
You will find that a similar principle applies in Siddha Yoga sadhana. For the teachings to take root, for the wisdom they hold to become a part of your modus operandi, they must be assimilated, in increments and on a continual basis. Hence Gurumayi’s guidance to pause between elements of a satsang or at different points in the day; hence Gurumayi’s teachings to focus on and continually return to the breath. In the breath, you find rest, an inherent moment of pause, and you can reacquaint yourself with the natural rhythm of your being.
The effort required of you for assimilation is subtle, yet its rigor should not be underestimated. On the one hand, you can’t force assimilation—you can’t muscle it into happening, not with your mind or with your body. On the other hand, assimilation necessitates a particular kind of awareness, a focus on the new information you’re assimilating and a sensitivity to how that new information jibes with, contradicts, or confounds what you may have understood to be true up to this point. With a watchful eye, and a mind that is at once alert and at ease, you must support the process of assimilation as it takes its course.
As you do so, what might you use as a focus and aid?
Two things: music and fragrance. Gurumayi has taught that in both music and fragrance, we find a means of cementing understanding. I’m sure that many of you, like me, will find immediate resonance in this wisdom. Think, for example, of all the songs that you’ve come to associate with certain people, places, or events. Think of all the memories that you have bound up in a particular scent.
On this page you will find music to support you in assimilating the Siddha Yoga teachings. The choice of music is, of course, key. Depending on the type of music you’re listening to, you might be better primed to think or to relax; you might feel energized or gradually drawn within. The music that is here is well-suited to the kind of gentle yet focused activity you’ll be engaging in.
I’ll tell you a bit more about what you’ll be hearing. It’s the song “Such a Great Attainment” from the album Remembrance, which is a collection of piano improvisations by Kenny Werner. Kenny is a longtime Siddha Yogi and a masterful pianist who has played in innumerable Siddha Yoga satsangs. I have often felt, when listening to Kenny’s music, that I’m hearing more than just the notes from his piano; I feel that I’m hearing his love for music, and his love for the Siddha Yoga path.
As you play this beautiful song, surround yourself with a scent that is pleasing to you. You might, for example, rub on or diffuse a few drops of fragrant oil, or light some incense. Then take some time to recall some of the many Siddha Yoga teachings and practices you have engaged with.
I hope that as you sit quietly and remember the trove of wisdom you’ve received and studied, you experience the music washing over you like a cascade. I wish for you to let the melodies and harmonies soothe your mind as you allow thoughts and images to surface. And I encourage you to observe what comes up for you with genuine curiosity. Suspend any judgment, and instead, see where your exploration takes you.
If you feel so inclined, you may record your observations in a journal. I find that there is always value in articulating my experiences, in crystallizing my understanding in words as it continues to develop. You too might find this to be useful, and as you note down your observations, you might notice that you are better able to identify how your understanding and outlook have shifted over the last several weeks and months of your sadhana.
You can do this kind of assimilation as many times as you wish, and if you own a copy of Remembrance (or would like to purchase it in the Siddha Yoga Bookstore), you may enjoy selecting different tracks to play at different times.